Don't Fall in Love

I don't know what I'm doing,
But I do it so well.
I don't what you're thinking,
But I think I can tell.

I won't be sleeping
Next to anyone tonight.
And I'll wake up thinking
That all along I knew I was right.

I never wanted to hurt you.
But sometimes you've got to do things you don't really want to do.

Don't be hung about it.
Don't think too much about it for too long.
I told you that I was going,
But I was already gone. I was already gone.
I told you to do just one thing,
And that was to not, that was to not
Fall--in love--with me.

I don't want that conversation
Where I make promises I don't intend to keep.
I don't want to ease temptations,
Because in the morning, I'm not sure where I will be.

I told you in the beginning,
I wasn't looking for a thing.
And I'll wake up thinking
You were never listening to me.


Don't be hung about it.
Don't think too much about it for too long.
I told you that I was going,
But I was already gone. I was already gone.
I told you to do just one thing,
And that was to not, that was to not
Fall--in love--with me.


I never wanted to hurt you,
But sometimes you do things you never wanted to.

I never wanted to hurt you,
But that's what I do.

Don't be hung about it.
Don't think too much about me, please.
I told you to do just one thing.
Don't fall in love with me.


Don't be hung about it.
Don't think too much about it for too long.
I told you that I was going,
But I was already gone. I was already gone.
I told you to do just one thing,
And that was to not, that was to not
Fall--in love--with me.


I told you in the beginning,
I wasn't looking for a thing.
But you were never listening.
You didn't listen to me.

Don't be hung about it.
Don't think too much about it for too long.
I told you that I was going,
But I was already gone. I was already gone.
I told you to do just one thing,
And that was to not, that was to not
Fall--in love--with me.

Find Myself

It's so easy to deceive
When you've spent so long believing.
And it's not hard to fake a smile
When that's the best you've ever known.
And it's so easy to walk beside yourself
When you're the only one who's listening.
You grow comfortable to being all alone.

It's been so long,
And you didn't wait for me.
But I was much more strong
Than I ever thought I'd be.
You pushed me to ground,
And, Baby, I'm still crawling.
But I'll find a way to get up some time, somehow.
I don't need you.
I don't need anyone else.

The face inside the mirror,
Isn't one that you know well.
But it's the one that you've been seeing,
And it's getting too close to tell.
Every scar and broken heart
Is just one more reminder
That you lost her once, and now it's time to go and find her.

I don't know who I am,
And I don't know why I'm crying.
My eyes have never been this red.
I've spent all these years trying to forget.
But it's never been that easy.
I just need someone to try to help but not try to fix me.

It's been so long,
And you didn't wait for me.
But I was much more strong
Than you said I'd ever be.
You kicked me while I was down,
And, Baby, I'm still crawling.
But I'll find a way to get up some time, somehow.
I don't need you.
I don't need anyone else.
I need to find myself.

All those things that you said when you left
Haven't left my mind.
I think about you all the time.
I've been so down for a while.
But I know,
I'm getting better all the time.

I just need to somebody to love me all the time.
But it's got to be me this time.

It's been so long.
You never wait for me.
But I am much more strong
Than I thought I'd ever be.
I've been kicked to the ground,
And, Lord, I'm still kneeling.
But I'll find a way to get up some time, right now.
I don't need you.
I don't need anyone else.
I need to find myself.
(x2)

I don't need you
And I don't need anyone else.
I just need to find myself.

Half As Good

Don't flatter yourself, now, Sugar.
'Cause that ain't my intention.
Don't view me as your competition.
'Cause I don't need the tension.
Don't try to raise no questions.
'Cause I'm not here to listen.
Don't roll your eyes at me, Sweetheart.
'Cause I'm not here to miss him.

I'm just tryin' to drink what's in my hand.
I'm not the kind to cry about a man.

But I don't know what stories he's been telling you,
But I got a couple of them I'd like to say to you.
You're not as lucky as you think you are.
You haven't seen his slate grey heart.
And he probably wrote me off as his crazy ex,
But, Honey, I only did my best
And did what I could.
And when it comes to down to it,
You'll never be  half as good.

I'm not gonna lie to you.
There was a day when I'd have given anything--
What was I thinking?--
Anything to win his love.
But I was always shit out of my luck.
A new girl, every day.

Now, I'm not trying to scare you out of anything.
But I just don't see anything changing.

I don't know what stories he's been telling you,
But I got a couple of them I'd like to say to you.
You're not as lucky as you think you are.
You haven't seen his slate grey heart.
And he probably wrote me off as his crazy ex,
But, Honey, I only did my best
And did what I could.
And when it comes down to it,
You'll never be half as good.

I didn't like his games, but I kept on playin'.
And he's never gonna find a girl where he can say the same thing.
I didn't like his music, and I didn't like his dog.
But the best thing he's ever gonna see is gone.

I don't what stories he's been telling you,
But I got a couple of them I'd like to say to you.
You're not as lucky as you think you are.
He's never ripped you right apart.
And he probably wrote me off as his crazy ex,
But, Honey, I only did my best
And did what I could.
And when it comes down to it,
You'll never be half as good.


Don't flatter yourself now, Sugar.
'Cause that ain't my intention.
Don't roll your eyes at me, Sweetheart.
'Cause I ain't ever gonna miss him.

Summer Saturday

The sun is beating down on your sun-tanned skin.
I see you out the corner of my eye.
You say you knew that this would happen,
You just didn't know when.
Baby, it's right now.
And you're blowing my mind.

Hook, line, and sinker--
Boy, you got me good.
But I never had a doubt,
I knew you could.
So thread another line and cast another reel,
And let me tell you how I really feel.

Fishin' turned into more than just a summer Saturday.
I don't know how you did it, but you're getting to me.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And wishin' turned into more than just a little someday,
Prayin' maybe on a summer day.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And we were just fishin' on a summer Saturday.

The sun is going down on my snow white skin,
And you're lookin' at me with your devilish grin.
I'm thinkin' it's just about time that we jumped in, yeah.

So grab another beer and open up the top.
Let's lay here with each 'til we both doze off.
When we wake up in the morning,
We can do it all again.


Fishin' turned into more than just a summer Saturday.
I don't know how you did it, but you're getting to me.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And wishin' turned into more than just a little someday,
Prayin' maybe on a summer day.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And we were just fishin' on a summer Saturday.

You were laughing at me because I wouldn't bait that hook.
And I'm laughing at you because I always said you'd never win me over with that look.


But fishin' turned into more than just a summer Saturday.
I don't know how you did it, but you're getting to me.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And wishin' turned into more than just a little someday,
Prayin' maybe on a summer day.
Don't know how you did it, never felt this way.
And we were just fishin' on a summer Saturday.

I don't know how you won me over, but you did today.

And we were just fishin' on a summer Saturday.

I Want To

I woke up in the wrong bed,
on the right side.
Don't know what got into me last night.

It must have been the wine or those blue jeans
or the way you were looking at me.
But everything about you was blowing my mind.

I woke up with a headache
and a Tylenol
and a note that you left on the pillow.

"Lock the door when you go,"
and that was all He wrote.
Where you go, I've never been too sure.

Maybe I'll never know the story behind that worn out tattoo.
And maybe I'll never know why you're so cold and how she hurt you.
And maybe I'll never know why every time I ask about you, you say that I don't want to know.
But I do.
Maybe I'll never know anything about you,
but I want to.

It's always been like this.
I don't know why I'm still so surprised.
You're always gone when I open up my eyes.

It must be you and your soft kiss
and the way you're holding me like this
that makes me sink into your every lie.

Maybe I'll never know the story behind that worn out tattoo.
And maybe I'll never know why you're so cold and how she hurt you.
And maybe I'll never know why every time I ask about you, you say that I don't want to know.
But I do.
Maybe I'll never know anything about you,
but I want to.

It's never going to change.
It's always going to be same.
And I'll probably sit and bet into your game.

"Lock the door when you go."
That's all you've ever wrote.
But this time, I've got something to say.

Maybe I'll never know the story behind that worn out tattoo.
Maybe I'll never why you're so cold and what I can do.
Maybe you'll never realize that I keep coming 'round because I want you.
Maybe I'll never know anything about you.
But I want to.
I want you.

Maybe I'll never know anything about you.
But I want to.

Feet Wet

Don't jump in yet.
The wine hasn't worn off yet.
You don't want to regret
Anything you might have said.

But when you kiss me,
Hopefully your lips will see
The truth within me
Is lingering on my lips.

No, I don't want to slow down tonight.
In the morning, maybe, we  can make it alright.

My makeup
Is on the shoulder of your white shirt.
And all I can think of
Is if you leave, how badly I would hurt.

You say, "It's late, Love.
Get back to sleep, Love.
And when you wake up,
I'll be right here."

Every time I close my eyes,
I want to know that everything will be alright.

So when you kiss me,
Hopefully you will see
The truth within me
Is lingering on my lips.

I don't need any help from you
Doing things I know I really shouldn't do.
And of all the things I'm absolutely sure of,
The only question in my mind is the sure thing of your love.

Don't jump in yet.
We can get our feet wet.
The wine is not gone yet.
I don't want to know yet.

So just kiss me.
And in the morning, maybe,
We'll riddle this right.
Just hold me tonight.

That's Love

You said you'd wait for me,
but I don't believe it.
I can't make you any promises.
You may be waiting longer than you planned.
I was just about to quit, and then you said,

"Your hands aren't steady.
Your knees are shaking.
But don't you worry,
I'll be waiting.
Just pull yourself together now,
and when you're done,
I'll be right here, 'cause Baby that's love."

You said you needed space,
and I gave it to you.
You said you didn't know if you'd come home.
I wrote a note.
You were just about to quit, but then you read what I wrote,

"Your hands aren't steady.
Your knees are shaking.
But don't you worry,
I'll be waiting.
Go ahead, go and find yourself,
and when you're done,
I'll be right here, 'cause Baby that's love."

I heard a knock at the front door,
and when I opened it up, you were kneeling on the floor.
You said,

"My knee is steady,
But my hand is shaking.
Just say yes, 'cause I've been waiting.
Promise you'll be home every time I come home."

And I said,
"Yes, 'cause Baby that's love."

My hands aren't steady.
My knees are shaking.
But don't you worry,
I'll be waiting.
Oh, 'cause baby that's love.

The Dream

I woke up with a headache
In an unfamiliar place.
But I started to feel at home
When I turned and saw your face
At the window,
On the outside,
Looking in.

Got up off the sofa,
And I stumbled to the door.
I didn't know what I was doing,
But I knew I wanted more.
So I took a step outside,
Stopped right by your side and looked in.

And I saw you and I saw me
I saw a happy family.
And I saw us.
It was just a dream.

I'm in reality now,
And I'm rememebering how
You look right through me.
I'm not even there.
But in casual conversation,
You're the one that brought it up.
You don't know what you do to me,
And you don't really care.

But I saw you and I saw me.
And you asked me what I'd think,
And I said I don't care.
It's reality.
But the fact of the matter is,
If you want an answer,
I've got to be number one.
Not two or three.

So ask again, love.
Oh ask again.
I've thought it over.

Got up off the sofa,
And I stumbled to the door.
I didn't know what I was doing then,
 But today I want  more. So much  more.

I saw you and I saw me.
Ask again, Love.
I saw you and I saw me.
Ask again, Love.
I saw you and I saw me
And you asked me what I'd think
And I said it's reality.

Every February

Every time I come back to this town,
I search every street
Just to make sure there's no chance in Hell
You'll ever see me.

I take a walk down memory lane,
Just me and myself.
But every time I come back to this town,
You catch up to me, and I don't know how.

Why do you feel the need,
Every February,
To show up at my door
In those blue jeans that I love?
What is it that makes you think
You can come 'round here at all--
That you can push me when I'm just about to fall?
What is it that makes you think
You can even come and talk to me
After all you said before,
When you stood outside this door and screamed at me?
And why do I feel the need
To give into my buckling knees
Every February?

Every morning after, I wake myself up,
Take a look in the mirror,
Get strong and get tough.

Order you out of this bedroom
And wearily slam the door.
I peek outside of the curtains
And watch you get into your car.

You always sit there for a minute or two
Just staring at me.
Every time I come back to this town
You know it's me I don't want you to see.

Why do you feel the need,
Every February,
To show up at my door
In those blue jeans that I love?
What is it that makes you think
You can come 'round here at all--
That you can push me when I'm just about to fall?
What is it that makes you think
You can even come and talk to me
After all you said before,
When you stood outside this door and screamed at me?
And why do I feel the need
To give into my buckling knees
Every February?

Every time, I
Want to find the strength to say no.
But you know too well,
I'm never going to.
Yeah, you told me
I was the single worst thing
That ever showed up at your door.
So why do you keep showing up for more?

Why do I keep wanting more?

Why do you feel the need,
Every February,
To show up at my door
In those blue jeans you know I love?
What is it that makes you think
You can come 'round here at all--
That you can push me when I'm just about to fall?

You always push me when you know I'm gonna fall.

What is it that makes you think
You can even come and talk to me
After all you said before,
When you stood outside this door and screamed at me?

And why do I feel the need
To give into my buckling knees
Every February? (x2)

Every time I come back to this town
I search every street
Just to make sure there's no chance in Hell
You'll see me.

Losing Me

Here I am
Once again
Sweet as sin
And all alone

Thinking of you
With a pen in hand.
You're the sweetest sin
I've given into.

But I'm in too deep.
When will I see
I'm all alone?
There's no one here with me.

I've got my head above the water,
But I'm sinking.

And every girl wants the fairy tale.
Every girl wants the dream.
But I'm starting to realize
You're not what you seem.

So pinch me, wake me up
Before we first pick up where we last left off.
It's true,
The part of the story you never see is
Prince Charming losing me.

There I go,
Through your door.
Watch me walk
Like I've watched you walk away before.

And I hope, Honey,
That she is
The sweetest sin
That really did you in.

Get your head above the water.
Don't you dare start sinking.
Don't start thinking
That I'm ever gonna pull you out again.
That's not how this story ends.

So pinch me, wake me up
Before we first pick up where we last left off.
It's true,
The part of the story you never see is
Prince Charming losing me.

I'll wake you up
Before we first pick up where we last left off.
It's true,
The part of the story we never see is
Prince Charming losing me.

You never see
Prince Charming
Losing
Everything.

Losing me.

...

Blue Eyes

Blue eyes
Get me every time.
And compromise
Never crossed my mind.

But you've got me right where you want me.
I'm giving in,
And I'll let you win slowly.

My chest is heavy, and it's harder to breathe.
You're doing it right.
You're getting to me.

[]

Crying all night
And dirty cat fights--
That's what happens when little boys lie.

You think that I'm
Gonna open up the door,
That I'll take you back for sure.
Well count your strikes.
There won't be no more.

No more calling me baby.
No second chances,
No maybe.
Had my doubts,
But believe me
I've made my mind up, just let me be.

Just let me be.

Blue eyes
Get you every time.
And compromise
Never crossed my mind.

You think you've got me right where you want me.
But think again.
You're not getting off easy.

My chest is heavy, and I need to breathe.
Just give it a rest.
You're really getting to me.

Just give it a rest,
And let me be.

Just give it a rest.

Free

Give my trembling hands a break.
What I'm chasing won't set me free.
Give my wounded heart a shake.
Watch me break piece by piece.

The room is spinning,
And the night is just beginning,
And I'm losing sight of everything I knew.

I chose to take the high road,
Because you and I, we both know
That I don't know me. Do I even know you?

So give your tired voice a break.
Listen to everything I never said.
Give my aching eyes a chance.
You know I'm not so easily read.

The sun is rising,
And this morning's compromising
When I look to my right, and I catch a glimpse of you.

Tangled in this sheet
With your arm under me.
I don't know why I didn't leave, but somehow I think you knew

That I'm no hero.
I'm just a damsel in disguise.
Not even the shadows
Are dark enough to hide the lies
That I've been telling, oh,
Telling nobody but me.
What I'm chasing ain't gonna set me free.
(x2)



The moon is rising,
And this evening's mesmerizing
When I look to my right, and I catch a glimpse of you.

Little Lies

When I'm the small fish in the big fish bowl,
And I've got nowhere to go but home,
When the world is watching my every move,
I'll find you.

When I scream alone into the dark,
Lying motionless, taunted by my heart,
When I'm alone inside a crowded room,
I'll find you.

When the waves fall and crash at my feet,
When I fall and crash down upon my knees,
When no one can hear my cries,
Not even me,
That's when I need to find just what I need.

When the stars go out, and I can't find
Everything that I want to call mine,
When I can't make sense of anything,
I see you.

When my heart goes out and breaks apart,
When I reach the end before I even start,
When I dial the number just to hang up the phone,
I need you.

When the waves fall and crash at my feet,
When I fall and crash down upon my knees,
When no one can hear my cries,
Not even me,
That's when I need to find just what I need.

And I don't know where you are tonight.
And I'd probably give up long before I tried
To find you.
God I miss you.

When the waves fall and crash at my feet,
When I fall and crash down upon my knees,
When no one can hear my cries,
Not even me,
That's when I need to find what I need.

When you look up to the stars and can't find
Anything that you left behind,
When no one can your cries,
You'll find me.

Little lies have kept me,
But now I'm leaving.

You Were Right

I'm the smoke that's dancing from the tip of that cigarette.
You're nothing more to me than my first regret.
I should forget. But I can't forget.
I haven't gained that strength just yet.
I will forget.
Smoke your cigarette.

I'm the melody that's playing from that violin.
I think about you from time to time, now and then.
But don't deceive. You don't need me.
I don't need you. I don't need a thing.
Now and then,
I don't forget.
Smoke your cigarette. 

Lies you told her,
and now you hold her.
And I'm still one big mess.
You're laughing at me,
But I'm laughing at you.
I must confess.

You were right, I was wrong.
I didn't after need you after all.
Losing you wasn't the worst thing, I could do.
You were right, it was my fault
for believing you for so long.
You told me what to do.

I'm the lie that slips between your lips when you pull her close.
You're the tragedy I seek to get my chorus to close.
But you don't see, what you did for me.
You won't forget, how's that cigarette?

You were right, I was wrong.
I didn't need you after all.
Losing you wasn't the worst thing, I could do.
You were right, it was my fault
for believing you for so long.
You told me what to do.

I was right, it was all wrong.
But you wanted it prolonged.
Losing me, never changed a thing to you.
You were right, I was wrong.
I didn’t need you after all.
Losing you was the best thing, I could do.
Losing you was all that I could do.

I’m the heartbreak that you’ll feel when the time is right.
The victim always sees their doers flame ignite.
Just hold her tight. Close your eyes tonight.
Don’t you ever forget.
Light that cigarette. 

When You're Sober

You’re running low on whiskey
While I’m running low on faith.
I can’t take much more,
And you can read it on my face.
I know you’re staring through me,
I can see it in your gaze,
Fixed on the crack in the mirror.
We all get replaced.

Now you’re down to your last drag,
And I’m hanging around.
I should be heading back,
But I can’t turn around.
It’s like the door has vanished,
And I’m not even panicked.
Let’s go back to bed
And pick up with what we’re good at.

We’ll talk this over when you’re sober,
When I let you in, when I can breathe again.
We’ll talk about it later when something starts making sense.
So turn the lights out,
And hide beneath the covers,
And hang onto each other,
And leave this place.


Dreams are hard to follow
And bottles always break.
Can I ask you for a favor
That’s not just for a rainy day?
I need to be saved anyway.

We can help each other--
Give and then take.
Welcome mistakes
And risk another heartbreak.

But we’ll talk about it later when the glass hits the table
And the headaches have passed
And the dizziness is stable.
So turn the lights out,
And hide beneath the covers,
And hang onto each other,
And leave this place.

Laying in the lazy afternoon’s sun light,
Staring back into your Laguna eyes.
I think we found the answer.
It came as really no surprise.

The bottle is in the trash.
And my heart’s not so cold.
The boy and girl will last.
So the story is told.

No wonderland, no fantasy.
No kingdom, just you and me.

So turn the lights out.
And hide beneath the covers.
And hang onto each other.
And leave this place.

The crack in the mirror
Just meant that it needed replaced.
What do you say?

But we’ll talk this over when you’re sober. 

Hey, Baby

Hey, Baby, I am a girl who’s never been so gone or so wrong.
He is just one heart break with a million love songs.
Someday, maybe you could be the you to “you and me.”

Give me, just a little time,
Just a little time to unwind.
Hey, Baby, just look me in the eye
And know it’s going to be alright.
Just give me a little—time—

Is ticking. It’s taking its sweet time.
Your silence from the other room mocks my cries.

Just get up,
Shut up,
And listen to me.
I’m trying,
I want to.
Please believe me.

Give me, just a little time,
Just a little time to unwind.
Hey, Baby, just look me in the eye
And know it’s going to be alright.
Just give me a little—time—

Is flying by. I’m sinking slowly.
I want you by my side. I’m going.
I’m falling. Always falling.

Hey, Baby. I am a girl who’s never been so gone or so wrong.
Hey, Baby, you’ve got your first love song.

Give me, just a little time,
Just a little time to unwind.
Hey, Baby, just look me in the eye
And know it’s going to be alright.
Just give me a little time.
Hey, Baby, just look me in the eye.
Just give me a little time. 

Going

There won't be a letter.
There won't be a single tear.
There won't be a goodbye
When I choose to leave here.

It's not like you

 Would miss me if i do.
So there won't be a letter
Addressed to you.

Oh-

I've got the right to just disappear.
Oh-
Get on out of here.
So I'm going.

There won't be a blue sky

That fades to gray.
There won't be a "Why did I,
When it was going so great?"

It's not like you
Were ever going to change.
There won't be a letter
Describing pain.

Oh-
I've got the right to just disappear.
Oh-
Get on out of here.
So I'm going.
You should have seen it coming.

Don't write me a letter.
Don't cry me a single tear.
Don't tell me you miss me
Not being here.

It's not like you
Will be lonely for long.
Keep your thoughts to yourself.
I'm already gone.

Oh-
I've got the right to just disappear.
Oh-
Get on out of here.
So I'm going.

Oh-
I chose to disappear.
Oh-
Get the Hell out of here.
So I'm going.
You should have seen it coming.
Now you can see me going.  

(December 2011)

I'm Yours

I loved you first,
Beneath sheets of paper.
It was just a verse,
But it was all I could come up with.

I graced your hand,
Grabbed my pen,
and wrote what was in my heart.
"I felt a spark."
It was the best that I came up with.


And I don't know how I got to be this far,
Running in circles, finding my way through the dark.
Then there's the spark, and I can finally see:
You're the light to me, the light that I've been missing.


So never leave, me.
Never fear me.
Never distrust me, because I'm yours.


I love you now,
Beneath the sheets.
For what it's worth,
It's everything that I thought that it could be.


I graced your hand.
I let you in, to my bruised and battered heart.
I let you see everything that I'm missing.


And I don't know how I got so far
Running in circles, stumbling my way through the shadows of my heart,
without losing me, self-destructing.
You're the light that I needed.


So never leave, me.
Never fear me.
Never distrust me, because I'm yours.


Never pardon me.
No apologies,
I'm just being me. And I'm yours.


I'm yours.
Never leave me.
Never fear me.
Never pardon me.
I'm yours.


I loved you first,
Beneath sheets of paper.
For what it's worth,
It is everything I thought that it could be.


I felt a spark, from a verse, from a sound, from a look.
And now I'm yours.
I'm yours.

(November 2011)

Easy Time Gone

Someday, I'll think of the words that I should say
Long before I realize it's too late
To say them.


Last night, I had a dream everything was fine.
It's been a long time since I've been alright.
I can't take it.


Honestly, I'm faking.
Don't know what to do when my heart isn't breaking.


And I don't know how long I can keep this up,
Making these feelings up.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I don't care anymore,
And I'm giving up.
I'm not crying, because I'm all alone.
I'm not dying, because I wasn't the one.
I'm not looking for anyone.
It's been a long time coming but an easy time gone.


Nightfall, hopeful there will be no pain.
But disappointment knows me by my first name.
And I can't escape.


But daybreak, the makeup is off my face.
As for heartbreak, I think I've simmered the ache.
I can breathe again.


Honestly, I'm broken.
The web of lies I tell myself is woven.


And I don't know how long I can keep this up,
Making these feelings up.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I don't care anymore,
And I'm giving up.
I'm not crying, because I'm all alone.
I'm not dying, because I wasn't the one.
I'm not looking for anyone.
It's been a long time coming but an easy time gone.


 And I don't know why I ever let you get to me.
I let you take the best of me.
But now I know that my heart is stone.
I can't let it go, so I'll let it show.


 Call me wrong and call me crazy.
But I will never call you Baby.
 If you come around, you won't break me down.
 Maybe a year or two, someone could save me.


But this is how I feel right now.


And I don't know how long I can keep this up,
Making these feelings up.
And I don't what to say anymore.
I don't feel anything anymore. 


(September 2011)

Not A Love Song

I’m sitting by the telephone,
waiting for a call I know will never come.
I’m all alone inside my head,
staring at the place you used to lie, in my bed.


It’s not the same without you here.
But don’t feel flattered, 
I do not miss you, my dear.
I’m consumed with asking why.
The question’s been lingering in my mind. 


It’s been months since our last good-bye.
I hope there’s never a new hello.
So I lay down and close my eyes.
Lights out, head on pillow. 


I’m better off, now, that you’re gone.
I’m empty, but not for long. 


I always was a kind of strong.
You kind of have to be
if you’re trying to get along.
In this world, I do belong.
In your heart, was always a different song.


One that’s full of so much hate.
You drug me down,
and I had more than I could ever take.
How much work does it entail
to rip the pages of every love fairy tale? 


I tried hard to make it all fit right.
lost myself instead.
It took strength to finally end that fight.
But you best believe I did. 


I did.
I’m better off, now, that you’re gone.
I’m empty, but not for long.
Your voice stays in my head, it’s my song.
Not a love song.
Not a love song.


I would have done just anything
to take your heart and make it feel the same.
But that was months and months ago.
Today I feel a little differently…so,


Here is my farewell to you:
Go ahead and do what you do.
You’re a boy who won’t be changed.
My heart, the remains, it’s a shame.


I’m better of, now, that you’re gone.
I’m empty, but not for long.
Not for long.
Your voice stays in my head, it’s my song.
Not a love song.
Not  love song.
Get it off of my chest song.
I’m finally gone song.
Feels so good to be gone song.
Not a love song.
Not a love song.
Not a love song.


It’s been months since our last good-bye.
I hope there’s never a new hello.
Lights out, head on pillow. 

Nightmare

Just for a minute, you thought  I was no where,
No where to be found.
A couple months ago I would have been dying,
Just to hang around.
Yeah.


You're alright, in thinking there's no way
I'll ever be back.
I'm alright, I'm wasting the day away
Thinking of all you lacked.


So when you're reminiscing,
and it's me you to start to missin',
don't think I'm gonna pick up the phone.
When you realize that maybe I wasn't to blame,
I'll already be gone.
Hey, oh.


Just for a minute, you thought I was no where,
No where to be found.
But when you close your eyes, baby, you know that
I'm always around.
I'm always lurking in the shadows of all your mistakes,
the silly games you play, the smiles you fake.
I'm sitting around the corner of every heart you break.
Hey, oh.
Just when you thought I was gone forever,
I'll be your nightmare forever.


Just for a minute, you thought I was no where,
No where in sight.
A couple months months ago, I would have gone anywhere
Just to end a fight.
Yeah.


You're alright, in thinking I'm outta here.
Honey, you're always right.
I'm alright, I'm just wasting the day away.
I'm used to wasting my time anyway.


Just for a minute, you thought I was no where,
No where to be found.
But when you close your eyes, baby, you know that
I'm always around.
I'm always lurking in the shadows of all your mistakes,
the silly games you play, the smiles you fake.
I'm sitting around the corner of every heart you break.
Hey, oh.
Just when you thought I was gone forever,
I'll be your nightmare forever.


See me when you're looking at every single one of them.
Feel me when you're feeling every single one of them.
Don't you come around.
I'm out of sight.
Don't you make a sound.
I'm out of sight.
You told me I'd never leave,
well tell me,
What do you think of, what you do think of me now?


I'm not that pretty little quiet girl you used to push down.
You ripped my heart to pieces and left,
but now I'm coming back, I'm coming back around.


Just for a minute, you thought I was no where.
No where to be found.
But when you close your eyes, baby, you know that
I'm always around.
I'm always lurking in the shadows of all your mistakes,
the silly games you play, the smiles you fake.
I'm sitting around the corner of every heart you break.
Every heart you break.


Just for a minute, you thought I was no where.
No where to be found.
But when you close your eyes, baby, you know that
I'm always around.
I'm always lurking in the shadows of all your mistakes,
the silly games you play, the smiles you fake.
I'm sitting around the corner of every heart you break.
Hey, oh.
Just when you thought I was gone forever,
I'll be your nightmare forever.


Just when you thought I was gone forever,
I'll be your nightmare forever

Silly Girl

Silly girl,
Standing in front of the mirror saying:
"Silly girl. What have you done?
Silly girl, wipe the tears off your cheek now.
Silly girl, you haven't lost; you haven't won."


He was a silly boy.
Don't be so down about it.
Just a silly boy,
you'll meet plenty more of those.
Don't let a silly boy
define anything you can be.
Tell the silly boy,
"You may have clipped my wings,
You may have pushed down,
But I'll still fly."


The sun is shining outside,
And the birds are singing their tune.
The flowers are blooming in the yard,
And the fire's burning you.
Silly girl is admitting everything she knew.
Silly girl is letting go of you


With a couple friends
And a couple drinks.
This is just what Silly Girl thinks.


He was a silly boy.
Don't be so down about it.
Just a silly boy.
You'll meet plenty more of those

Other Mistakes

You and me, we're too big now,
Too big now for our town.
10 thousand tired people
Watched as we tumbled down.


I can't keep seeing you,
And you can't keep watching me.
If we're both settled here,
You'll start your missing me.


This isn't giving up.
This isn't giving in.
This selfish heart you left me
Would never let you win.


I've got to leave this place,
Run so far away,
Pretend I never knew you,
Learn from my mistake.


When the summer ends, I'll be gone--
A few hours away on my own.
And I won't come back here to you
Like they want and expect me to do.
When the autumn comes, I'll be gone--
That heartache you gave, I forgot.
And I won't come back to this place,
I've got other mistakes to make.


The sun is coming up now,
Rising from the East.
I'm staring through my window.
I'm fine, to say the least.


I haven't cried a tear drop.
I haven't had that dream
where you're smiling at me,
Then put your hands on me.


I have my weaker moments,
And I can hardly breathe.
I reach out to touch you.
Do you think of me?


But I will never write you.
I will never break.
10 thousand people can't be wrong.
You were my first mistake.


When the day comes, I will be gone--
A few states away, on my own.
And I won't come back here to you
Like my heart sometimes wants to do.
When that spring comes, I will be gone--
That heartache you gave, I forgot.
And I won't go back to that place,
I've got other mistakes to make.


I've got other roads to travel.
I've got other ropes to unravel.
I've got other tears to cry.
And I've got plenty of time.


This isn't giving up.
This isn't giving in.
This selfish heart you left me
Would never let you win.


I've got to leave this place,
Run so far away,
Pretend I never knew you,
Learn from my mistake.


When the summer ends, I'll be gone--
A few hours away on my own.
And I won't come back here to you.
I won't come back to this place.
I've got other mistakes to make.


(May 2011

1.5.2012

Over the past 2 or so years, I've put together a pretty interesting blog on Tumblr that I love keeping up with. I love blogging. I just like expressing myself in a way where there usually is no judgement, and I can  be uncensored if I choose to be.
Since I've acquired this taste for blogging and have begun to take lyric writing a little more seriously, I've decided to create this one specifically to house my original lyrics and any news regarding progress. That's it. This isn't a blog for quotes and music links, just lyrics and personal news dealing with them. And just a side note: not all of these lyrics are going to be amazing. I'm an 18 year old who really is just putting my feelings into a poem, so excuse any silliness or below par songs.

Also, I can't say how often this will be updated. That all depends on how quickly I'm putting lyrics together. Sometimes I can get 2 or 3 good ones in a week or two. Other times, I have month long slumps. So pardon any gaps in updates. 

xoxo
-Jacqie